All we know is the little information we get hold of, from our surroundings. It is tough to accept reality when it feels threatened by our lives. There is a lot at hold for everyone.
Being anxious, depressed, and feeling low is normal. It is fine and okay. It is also understandable if I feel it is not okay. It is not okay and it’s okay to say that it’s not okay. Whatever little helps you and me, to calm down and get through these matters.
The days are going by, a lot has been happening. Some days I just turn off the news, devices and simply pass my day like there is nothing left for me to do and other days, I just sit in front of my computer for a day and a night continuously binge watching some series. Sometimes I sit and talk to all the old friends, sometimes whom I didn’t even talk to much before.
It is like a dream come true in one way. But the anxiety of not being able to work on my dream, on my future plans, scares me. I can put the little efforts I can. But, no amount of hard work seems to be effective. Suddenly I feel it’s okay to delay my plans because the situation is that hard. It is okay to keep some things on hold, which don’t need immediate attention.
It is stupid when I talk to myself, say it is okay and then say it is not okay. I feel like I am dreading for life now. It is stupid to feel bad when actual people who are out there, trying their best efforts to survive and help others as much as they can. The most I can do is sit at home.
All the thoughts, each and every thought, the confusion, the vulnerability are all in me. I am old enough to not talk like this. Yet, here I am trying overcome those small innocent little confused thoughts. I hope those who feel similarly would try their best and accept the
Change, like never before.